Older and wiser (yeah, I can only hope!)

Well, I turned 32 yesterday. No big deal, I guess. Don't feel any older.

Kinda' pissed because we were supposed to go out for dinner to celebrate my birthday this past Saturday (hubby was trying to make it a surprise but sis-in-law let the cat outta' the bag by accident) but we ended up staying home because I was sick, he was sick and so was mom-in-law and sis-in-law. That only left my parents who weren't ill. So, I'm upset because it is the only night we can all get together. Hubby just says, "We can just do it another night." Yeah? Like when??? I work the following three nights (Sunday, Monday, Tuesday) and hubby's on-call Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. We leave for vacation Thursday and don't return until Sunday. I also have to work the following weekend (Saturday/Sunday). So that leaves maybe the Friday before my weekend to work. That's like 2 weeks later!

So, I guess like to think that my birthday is a big deal, but I guess it's not.

Hubby and I had quite the long talk a week or so ago. About the kids. About how I feel like he doesn't listen to me, about how narrow-minded he is. About a whole bunch of stuff. Felt good. Felt like I got a lot out in the open that I've been too afraid to say. Not sure yet if anything will really change, but it's a start. I can only wait and see what happens.

I'm really looking forward to getting away for a few days. We will have the baby with us so it's not like it's a romantic get-away or anything. But at least it's something....